This is my life!!!

Hello... The past 1 week has really been HECTIC! And in fact, I'm still very busy with my work now, and I could not probably finish all my work on time, which is TMR! and next week will be my Home coming FA! And I still didnt even started on my revision!! haiss... still can blog somemore!

Actually, there is a thought in me that troubled me, that I must must write this! If not I could not even concentrate on my work... I was wondering what for we get ourselves into a relationship when you do not have the financial support to provide the girl with a good life, with things that could satisfy the girls?? I really don't know... I really feel the sudden... AWAKE!  Why??? what for??? How???  All types of question just appeared in my mind! And this feeling SUCKS!!! especially when you're already overloaded with stress from sch, and now, you have to worry about money! I mean.. this is seriously not a healthy life for a college student! Too much stress I might just suicide one day... I mean it! The stress lvl is'n a joke!! School was kinda been a bitch! Kows that we have exam on next week, and they still gave us soooo much hw as if we are very free! I didnt sleep more than 5 hours a day on the weekdays! And lesson ends at 4+ and 5+ or maybe 6+ everyday!!! This is really INSANE!!! I don't know how long more I can bear with this... hais.... Just so many things to worry about, to stress about... MONEY UH MONEY~ Why I'm not born rich??? Money really could settle EVERYTHING!! Without money, you are just a PIECE OF SHIT!!! FML SERIOUSLY!!!! T.T

hais... I think I'm going back to hotel to work soon, in my most important year and I have to work! Congrat to myself!!! LIFE REALLY SUCK A LOT A LOT A LOT!!!

Pls show me some way out... And I really hope this shit could pass ASAP!!!

okay.. have to continue with my work.. A poor work working hard in the middle of the night, with just one small lamp! :'(

2013!! :D

Hello people... I'm back to blog again! :)  

2013 started off pretty well.  Although I can already feel the stress lvl and shits in sch even its just the first week of sch. But what to do, this year gonna be the SUPER DUPER IMPORTANT year of my life!!! A lvl... Determine the direction of where I'm going after high school.. And of cos, my only wish for this year is to do well for A lvl, and I'm actually hoping that I could score at least ABB/B for my A lvl, because I do aware of the criteria to enter to good uni course. E.g Bachelor Business management at SMU which required a minimum of ABB/B. Always wanted to study at NUS, but I know myself... I could'nt impossible score straight As to enter to business course in NUS. I'm still thinking of arts&social science in NUS or NTU WKW communication and information school. So... At least an ABB/B for my A lvl will secure a good uni course for me. :) 

Haha so, that's all for my wish for this year! Now, what should I talk about... Hmmm.... school? Haha ya okay then. Innova junior college! It's once a school that I hate TTM! But... I think I had finally accepted the fact that I'm in a college and I also had adapted to the lifestyle of a jc student! But I know myself too well! I'm just being  too lazy and ALWAYS procrastinated and and and lack of motivation in my work! This is really BAD! And I really want to change this bad habit, if not, I know I will screw up this year... But how?!?! How could I do this!! I'm so not motivated... :(  AAHHHH!!!

okay la! I think its enough? Haha its late... So I have to sleep well and charge myself for preparation of next week! haha will be back here again when I'm free :) 

So good night guys!! ^^

Life ah life!!!

Today, 15/08/12, Jasmine and Yee ling had officially withdraw from Innova JC and they will be transferring to poly the next year. hais... life really likes to toy with people and make people feel regret in their decision! Although we are not very bond in school because we are really hate the school A LOT A LOT!!! that's the common thing in us I guess? So... seeing them leave, I feel that I'm very lonely in the school, because i can't find any other people that share the same feeling as me, as in HATE THE SCHOOL SO MUCH THAT I DON'T WISH TO STAY AT THERE FOR ANY MINS!! CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT FROM THERE!!! and I don't like to see friends leave me, like Ana left us for Aus... SAME FEELING!!! so ya, they are gone and I'm stuck at Innova jc for the next 1 year! Hopefully!!!! Pray hard that I will be promote to J2 so that I can GET OUT FROM THIS SCH ASAP!!!!! HATE IT TO THE CORE SERIOUSLY!!!!!! and Monday was Jasmine birthday LOL 13.8.12! and Yee ling birthday is at 22.04! Not going to think too much and just to be focus on my upcoming PROMOTION EXAM!!! I DIE DIE MUST PROMOTE THIS YEAR!!!! I CAN'T AFFORD TO RETAIN!!!!! FUCKING CAN'T!!!!!!! AAAWWWWWWWWWWW~ Life is so unfair~ If I make the decision to transfer out from Innova, I'll be studying at NP now or maybe RP!!! hais.... Life ah Life! YOU ARE A BITCH!!! FULL OF DECISION AND FULL OF REGRET!!! _|_ MOTHERFCKER!!!!

2/7/2012

Hey... ya i know it's late now. It's 11:23PM and I got school next day.... but I really have no mood to sleep, although i'm tired, i'm sleepy. But i.... just no mood to sleep... Every of your twitte affects me deeply!!! saw your twitter and i know you are referring to me. What i can say is that i might had change but i'm changing to a better person, don't you think so? but one thing will NEVER CHANGE! that is my love for you. I know you won't be seeing this, but at least I will feel better after I type things out... I asked you, if give you another chance will you still be together with me... i know i'm being foolish, i'm taking to risk to lost you. But i want you to be with me happily!!! OKAy you just text me back... I'm really scare to look at it. I scare i will collapse after see your reply i scare i will cry the whole night i scare... to lose the only you! :'( ok, i just bravely open it up, i guess your reply didn't disappointed me, However, i don't know why i'm tearing... hais.... its being a long time that i cry alone in the dark for you. I really really really miss you a lot!!! :'( Reading the letter and msg that you once sent to me and gave to me... my tear is not going to stop for the night i guess... Thinking back the old us, the one when we are still at Kent ridge sec, at the prom night, at chalet, count down party 2012, CNY 2012, valentise day, my birthday, my mum birthday, your birthday! All the times we had spend is really memorable! I will not forget anything! I will always rmb all of this, i just wish that this will keep going, looking forward to spend more of this days with you, only you!

Thinking of pose some thoughts about my studies a few days ago, but I didn't really have time to do so. so ya, can't waste tonight to write this!!! Last semester I was really lived an inhuman lifestyle. I didn't do what i'm doing, i was like soulless everyday!! Maybe it's due to my unsettled heart in JC? but it won't happen in this semester anymore!!!! I SWEAR!!!! My summer test result: H2 history,chinese lit and eco. H1 math and gp. DUS/CS!!! WHAT KIND OF SHITTY RESULT IS THIS!?!?!? ANGRY DIE ME MAN!!!! Actually I had schedule my time quite good, and if i did follow my schedule, i could done lots of things!! BUT... due to my laziness and unpersistent mind! I failed to follow all my schedule tightly!!! but this will not be happen in this semester anymore! i will be ALERT and PERSISTENT in following all my schedule! REALLY HOPE THAT I COULD DO WELL FOR MY PROMOT EXAMS IN THE END OF YEAR!!!!!!

Every month's 26th will always remains me of you, Mitzi baby :D YAY!! Although we are not sure when exactly we were being together, but i regard this day as the day we were being together and i presume you know the reason why! hahah... ya for the past 5 months we really had a Roller coaster time being together, and i know i had being ridiculours sometimes due to my sch life! ITS FREAKING FRUSTRATED AND MOODY IN JC!! so ya i hope you will really be more understanding and be more patient with me sometime okay? okay? ^^ just hang on there for this 1 more year will you? Had a AWESOMEEE~ birthday celebration for you! ^^ BE PROUD K!!! THAT'S MY FIRST TIME ORGANISE AND PLAN FOR SUCH SURPRISE!!! HEEHEE.... HOPE WE DID SHOCK YOU AND GIVE YOU LOADS OF FUN! :D P.S Don't worry, more are coming... Heehee... =) HAHAH yeah! Time seems flying, and that's VERY GOOD!! CAN'T WAIT FOR MY 'A' LVL TO COME TO THE END!!!! So fast it is at the end of June and soon we will welcome July then August, sep, oct, NOV and DEC!!! YEAH!!! HOLIDAYYYY :D HAHAHAHA... Really super looking forward to Holiday, because i have lots of plan for it!! FIRST OF MOST!!! MBS WITH INSANIEIGHT PEEPS!!!! YAY!!!!! ^^ WE ARE GONNA TO HAVE A HELL LOADS OF FUN MAN!!! :D But of cos before that, i have my mid course to handle :( SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY SERIOULSY HOPE I WILL PROMOTE TO J2!!!! OH MY GOD... PLSSSS.... LET MY HARDWORK TURNS OUT SOME FRUITS CAN?? haisss..... okay going to continue doing my HW that i owe teacher :( Gonna post another post tonight :D Bye :D

12/3/12

Today i was so shock by the suprirse birthday party organise by all my insanine ppl !!!!
i really didn't expect that they will secretly organise this party!! REALLY TOUCHED!!! my first surprise party in my life :D
THANKS INSANINE VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!